It's Hot In Love

Once In A Lifetime

Cuando noche esta, te esperar
Quiero volverte loco esta noche
Con la luna llena, te esperar
Hoy morirs entre mis brazos
Y nunca soars de algo mas

When you're near me, I close my eyes,
I want to feel you by my side
When you kiss me, I close my eyes,
I want you by my side

When I realise there's no telling lies,
Then I know that once in a lifetime
Making love to you, every time it's new,
You know you're my once in a lifetime

Todo tu cuerpo temblar,
Pero esta vez, es realidad
An que el tiempo pase,
Nunca, nunca, lo olvidars,
Sera, solo una vez en tu vida

When you touch me, I burn inside,
Colder chills run down my spine
When you take me, it's hot in love,
Can't get enough!

When I realize there's no telling lies,
Then I know that once in a lifetime
Making love to you, every time it's new,
You know you're my once in a lifetime

Once in a lifetime, once in a lifetime, once in a lifetime
Giving all I've got, I'm your love-me-not,
You're my lover, once in a lifetime
Taking care of you, every time it's new,
You know you're my once in a lifetime

**

Take your chance, it'll come once and it'll go if you procastinate or ponder for too long of a time. It'll never come back to you again. Treasure while it lasts, grab it while you still can.

Come See My Quilt

Way Up High

Down to the clouds
Up from the roof
I missed the band
Why so aloof?

Way up high and goin too fast
Way up, way up high
Open your eyes
Come see my quilt

Big as the bed
Look what I built
Way up high and goin too fast
Way up, way up high

**
Your friends will know you better in the first minute you meet than your acquaintances will know you in a thousand years.

I Can't Be Seen

Melt Away

My head will turn to yellow
My eyes will turn to green
My voice will turn to mellow
But still I can't be seen

Melt away
I wanna melt away
Melt away
Can you tell the difference

Or do I sound the same?
I do just what I want to do
This is my favorite game

Melt away
I wanna melt away
Melt away

Weap And Moan

Flower

Bring Sally up
I bring Sally down
Lift and squat
Gonna turn around

One miss luckys dead and gone
Left me here to weap and moan

If you hate if fold your arms
If you love it clap your hands

**
Last of the three colourful daisies. A sweet sweet smelling day.

Flowers Grow All Over You

Paint A Rainbow

Earthen trail of slimy goo
I smear it on your cheeks like rouge
Eyes of red and lips of blue
Its cold and safe inside of you

Tie me down and shine
All over your body
Little drops of shark infested sea
When the colours change

I will chase your sadness away
See it glow when I paint a rainbow
Flowers grow all over you
Daffodils and roses too

Sky is painting a rainbow
Around your head like a halo
Tie me down and shine
All over your body

Little drops of shark infested sea
When the colours change
I will chase your sadness away
See it glow when I paint a rainbow

**
Flowers and more flowers. One of the most flowery day of mine. So refeshing, so lovely.

White lilies are my top pick followed by 'Gerbera' or better known as daisies (I love all colours of this species. Orange, white and red are a little more special to me though).

Just the two of them to keep me company, nothing more, nothing less, nothing else. Get the hint dear?

I Could Be There In Your Dreams

Flowers

I can never calm you down
And I can never turn you around
And I could never bring you flowers
And I could never turn you around

I could be there when you're sleeping
I could be inside your dreams
And I can be there when you're sleeping
And I can be inside your dreams
Oh yeah I, oh yeah

Stand at the kitchen sink
Feeling a plastic mood
Buildings have gotta change
Cause baby you're a lunatic

I could be there when you're sleeping
I could be there in your dreams
And I could be there when you're sleeping
And I could be inside your dreams
Oh yeah I, oh yeah

Stand at the kitchen sink
Feeling a plastic mood
Buildings have gotta change
Cause baby you're a lunatic

I could be there when you're sleeping
I could be there in your dreams
And I could be there when you're sleeping
And I could be inside your dreams
Oh yeah I, oh yeah

**
The red chilli bites. The colour will soon disappear. Saliva drips. It's truly hot and especially desirous.

This Saturday will be the 'long awaited' weekend night. The skin rubs the aromatic essentials. So smooth so elegant.

I Swear It Will Be Warm

Here She Comes

It's so lonely in this place,
so cold I don't believe
and there's no one knows my name

It's easy to pretend
It's easy to believe

There's a shadow on my wall
It dances like my soul, dances like my soul

It's so cold now, I swear it will be warm
Here she come now.

Medium? No!, Small? Yes!

On A Balance

**
In mid-September it was somewhere around 69.6kg. Half a month down and its now steadily sitting at 67.2kg. 2.2kg more of fats to burn. Burn, hurry, burn. I can't wait to stand tall at 65kg. It'll be a dream come true at the shortest time ever!

Shopping was made so very easy these days too. Could simple grab anything over the shelf and put them on without much of a hassle. Previously, my jeans were somewhat of size like '34-36'. Tried a good looking pair yesterday and my wife was stunned when even the size 32 was too loose for me. What a surprise. I have shrunk so much that my tees and shirts all have a new 'baggy' label on them.

Let's talk about tees. Yes, my favourite tees and most comfortable wear. 'Large' was already a problem then. At times, 'X-Large' seems to enable me to breathe easy despite me trying to squeeze into my preferable 'Large' one.

What I did yesterday was to hop over to Giordano. Saw a rather attractive bright yellow tee which caught my attention. I have too many tees in my drawers actually but my dearie darling wife forced me to try it on.

Reached home and the next stunt came next. I tried to put on the 'Large' bermudas (feel funny cause' of the jeans incident) which I bought in KL during my June holidays trip. Moreover, I haven't been putting them on for some time already. I tell you, even my whole head can fit into the gap! This time my wife fell to the sofa!

The next second that ticked, she nearly fainted when even the 'Medium' was too big. She decided to take the 'small' one for me and fits me perfectly. I sound ridiculous but i'm not kidding or pulling your leg in any way. It's a fact. It amazes me but again it's the real me, the new me!

Oh, honey, I've shrunk myself and not the kids, don't worry. My wife's very motivated to follow my bread-steps and intend to do the rice-less and noodles-less routine. Only time can tell. In the meantime I'm floating on air. Nike advertisement? You bet it is!

The thought of doing a 63kg does come to mind. What's 63kg when I can do a 65kg. However, my wife screamed. She said that I will look like a walking skeleton from Africa. I can't be 63kg! No, I cannot.

The Morning Is For You

Positivity

You say what you want to say
Your diamonds are drops of rain
Your smile is your credit card
Your currency is your love

And the morning is for you
And the air is free
And the birds sing for you
And your positivity

You play where you want to play
On the main streets where the creeps all prey
And you can feel like you're in dynasty
You could be what you want to be

And the morning is for you
And the air is free
And the birds sing for you
And your positivity

And the cars crash for you
And the sunshine is free
And the sirens call you
Yes, the morning is for you

Yes, the air is free
Yes, the world spins for you
And your positivity
Positivity

**
The day is finally over. Very tiring yet fun and fulfilling.

Dedicated to people who were born on the same day as I was. Not forgetting Brett Anderson and my dearie Ida and Luna's mom too! Haha! Thanks to those who have spent the past few days partying with me! Had a fantastic time really. Never had such a celebration till i'm 33.

Very Strange Day

Birthday

It's my birthday
No one here day
Very strange day
I think of you day
Go outside day
Sit in the park day
Watch the sky day
What a pathetic day
I dont like this day
It makes me feel too small
I dont like these days
They make me feel so small

**
The best birthday song that I came across. Put the words aside and you'll 'feel' the music running into you as the day progresses. Never really celebrate birthdays but this year seems to be a little peculiar in its own ways. All of a sudden there's a lustrous glow coming from seemingly nowhere. It's a time to smile and have a fiesta. The unexpected has come to show. Come around, I'll take you with me.

My alter ago, whose superpower for revolution lies in my epiphany for change, brought on me with the aid of serious check. At last end, I have reached a turning point. I finally have so much strength to move on and create a better situation for myself.

You may say that I never saw it coming or learned the hard way, but with profound change comes new opportunity. One door closes and another opens. So tear down the wall and rebuild anew.

He Knows So Much About These Things

This Charming Man

Punctured bicycle
On a hillside desolate
Will nature make a man of me yet?

When in this charming car
This charming man

Why pamper life's complexities
When the leather runs smooth
On the passenger seat?

I would go out tonight
But i haven't got a stitch to wear
This man said "It's gruesome that someone so handsome should care"

A jumped-up pantry boy
Who never knew his place
He said "return the rings"
He knows so much about these things
He knows so much about these things
I would go out tonight
But I haven't got a stitch to wear
This man said "It's gruesome that someone so handsome should care"

This charming man.
This charming man.

A jumped-up pantry boy
Who never knew his place
He said "return the ring"
He knows so much about these things
He knows so much about these things
He knows so much about these things

**
My perceptions are sharp, balanced and reasonable and guide my decision or support a position free from momentary distraction or impulse. I honor my authentic self when I choose to protect emotional vulnerabilities without compromising virtue, reputation, or principles.

I practice self control but I know that denial can't hide truth forever. 'Once bitten, twice shy.' I am empowered by the status quo and my virtue is justification. Coincidence?

Roman Goddess Of Love

Aphrodite

Venus's Greek name is Aphrodite. She is known as the Daughter of Heaven and Sea, the child of Uranus and Gaia. Her story tells of fertility, love and pleasure.

Venus wasn't conceived out of pleasure, but she worked hard to find her own. She was born when Gaia, Goddess of Mother Earth, got so angry at her husband Uranus that she sliced off his genitals and threw them into the sea. They mixed with the foam of the ocean and formed Venus, a symbol unconcerned with maternal issues and focused on sensuality and pleasure.

Venus married and bore children but did not stay focused on her home affairs. In fact, she concentrated almost completely on her extramarital affairs. Her many lovers include Aries, the God of War, and the handsome Adonis.

The goddess loved to pamper herself and cultivate her beauty. Her symbol represents the hand-held vanity mirror that Venus used to admire her beauty. Truly, Venus has become the symbol for feminity itself.

**
Venus has arrived in silence. Guiding me down the aisle and helding my hands high and tight, she said, 3 more days to the 29th. The turning of 33. Magical 33 in 3 more days

Candana

Namami Nanda Nandana

Sucaru vaktra mandalam sukarna ratna kundalam
Sucarcitanga candanam namami nanda nandana

Vrajangana sunayakam sada sukha pradayakam
Jaganmanah pralobhanam namami nanda nandanam

**
I offer pranama to Nanda-Nandana in whose beautiful ears hang jeweled earrings and whose entire body is anointed with fragrant candana.

I offer pranama to Nanda-Nandana who as the lover of the vraja gopis perpetually delights them and who enchants the minds of all living entities.

Namami Nanda-Nandana is about Krishna. More specifically, it's a warning. It warns young girls not to get too close to Krisna because he's a very beautiful young boy and he'll steal your heart. The blessing you get when you listen to the song is that you will find love.

Riddle Of Your Life

Mystical Machine Gun

Alien identities
Don't hide your pretty face from me
You awoke to the riddle of your life
But no one was there for you

Open up to where you first began
As a nicotine junkie singing
For a kodacam
Are you glad to see how far you've come?

You're a wizard in a blizzard
A mystical machine gun
Watch the skies
For the mystical machine gunfire

Alien identities
Don't hide that special place from me
You walked through a fire with a ten headed lion
And turned on your destiny

Open up, forget your life
Breathe in, breathe out
Retain a sense of suicide
Are you glad to see
How far you've come?

You're a wizard in a blizzard
A mystical machine gun
Watch the skies
For the mystical machine gunfire

Well, You've got to be stronger now
Than them,
Now you've got to be strong
You'll be singing the song
Of life 'til then,
You'll just have to be strong

OM NAMAH SHIVAYA

**
The mystic has revealed itself. The charm has come to show. The time is here again for the magical 33. I'm as mystical as a machine gun that fires.

Playing Me Deja Vu

Come Undone

Mine,
Immaculate dream,
Made breath and skin,
I've been waiting for you

Signed,
With a home tattoo,
Happy birthday to you,
Was created for you

Can't ever keep from falling apart
At the seams
Can't I believe you're taking my heart
To pieces

Oh, it'll take a little time,
Might take a little crime
To come undone now

We'll try to stay blind
To the hope and fear outside
Hey child, stay wilder than the wind
And blow me in to cry

Who do you need, who do you love
When you come undone
Who do you need, who do you love
When you come undone

Words, playing me deja vu
Like a radio tune I swear I've heard before
Chill, is it something real
Or the magic I'm feeding off your fingers

Can't ever keep from falling apart
At the seams
Can I believe you're taking my heart
To pieces

Lost, in a snow filled sky, we'll make it alright
To come undone now

We'll try to stay blind
To the hope and fear outside
Hey child, stay wilder than the wind
And blow me in to cry

Who do you need, who do you love
When you come undone
Who do you need, who do you love
When you come undone

**
Merely psychology? The illusion of having previously experienced something actually being encountered for the first time? It's here. It's near. It's coming. We shall see about that. Experience it.

Magical Mysteria

Hysteria

Out of touch, out of reach yeah
You could try to get closer to me
I'm in luck, I'm in deep, yeah
Hypnotized, I'm shakin' to my knees

I gotta know tonight
If you're alone tonight
Can't stop this feeling
Can't stop this fire

Oh, I get hysterical, hysteria
Oh can you feel it, do you believe it?
It's such a magical mysteria
When you get that feelin', better start believin'
'Cos it's a miracle, oh say you will,
Hysteria when you're near
Out of me, into you yeah
You could hide it's just a one way street
Oh, I believe I'm in you, yeah
Open wide, that's right, dream me off my feet
Oh, believe in me

I gotta know tonight
If you're alone tonight
Can't stop this feeling
Can't stop this fire

Oh, I get hysterical, hysteria
Oh can you feel it, do you believe it?
It's such a magical mysteria
When you get that feelin', better start believin'
'Cos it's a miracle, oh say you will
Hysteria when you're near
Come on

I've Got To Get It Through

I Am The Resurrection

Down down, you bring me down
I hear you knocking down my door and I can't sleep at night
Your face, it has no place
No room for you inside my house I need to be alone

Don't waste your words I don't need anything from you
I don't care where you've been or what you plan to do
Turn turn, I wish you'd learn
There's a time and place for everything I've got to get it through

Cut loose, cause you're no use
I couldn't stand another second in your company
Don't waste your words I don't need anything from you
I don't care where you've been or what you plan to do

Stone me, why can't you see
You're a no-one nowhere washed up baby who'd look better dead
Your tongue is far too long
I don't like the way it sucks and slurps upon my every word

Don't waste your words I don't need anything from you
I don't care where you've been or what you plan to do
I am the resurrection and I am the light
I couldn't ever bring myself to hate you as I'd like

I am the resurrection and I am the light
I couldn't ever bring myself to hate you as I'd like

**

I'm revitalised, resurrected, rejuvenated and reincarnated.

Just You And Me

I Love You

I have a smile
Stretched from ear to ear
To see you walking down the road

We meet at the lights
I stare for a while
The world around disappears

Just you and me
On this island of hope
A breath between us could be miles

Let me surround you
My sea to your shore
Let me be the calm you seek

Oh and every time I'm close to you
There's too much I can't say
And you just walk away

And I forgot
To tell youI love you
And the night's
Too long
And cold here
Without you
I grieve in my condition
For I cannot find the strength to say I need you so

Oh and every time I'm close to you
There's too much I can't say
And you just walk away

And I forgot
To tell you
I love you
And the night's
Too long
And cold here
Without you

**
Song for the night. What's that sound? It's a cricket! Are you aware of how a cricket makes music? Each species of cricket has a unique sound. Listen to it. It's the whisper of love, cup your ears close to your palms.

I'm Just Too Stupid To Care

Shower Your Love On Me

Shower your love on me
Don't make it so hard to cry
Shower your love on me
You don't need a reason why

'Cos I'm not even half the way there
But I'm just too stupid to care
So help me now
When I've fallen through

There are scenes in my open mind
Confusion and flashing lights
Shower your love on me
Cos' nothing here feels right

Cos' I'm not even half the way there
But I'm just too stupid to care
So help me now
When I've done all I can do

Shower Your love on me
I can't wait, I'm losing faith
Like we might just explode
Comfort me with a melody

Show me that I'm gonna know the answer
Show me that I'm gonna know
Shower Your Love on me
Don't make it so hard to cry

Shower your love on me
You don't need a reason why
Don't make it so hard to cry
Shower your love on me
Shower your love on me

The Source Of All Pleasure

Hare Krishna

Hare Krishna Hare Krishna
Krishna Krishna Hare Hare
Hare Rama Hare Rama
Rama Rama Hare Hare

"This chanting of 'Hare Krishna' is directly enacted from the spiritual platform, and thus this sound vibration surpasses all lower strata of consciousness - namely sensual, mental, and intellectual. As such anyone can take part in the chanting without any previous qualification."

The Hare Krishna mantra, also referred to reverentially as the Maha Mantra ("Great Mantra"), is a sixteen-word Vaishnava mantra made well known outside of India by the International Society for Krishna Consciousness (commonly known as 'the Hare Krishnas'). It is believed by practitioners to bring about a higher state of consciousness when heard, spoken, meditated upon, or sung out loud. According to Gaudiya Vaishnava theology, this higher consciousness ultimately takes the form of pure love of God (Krishna)

The Hare Krishna mantra is composed of Sanskrit names in the vocative case: Hare, Krishna, and Rama (in Anglicized spelling, the IAST of the three vocatives is hare, krshna and rāma)

Rama and Krishna both appear as names of Vishnu in the Vishnu sahasranama and refer primarily to the 7th and 8th Maha Avataras of Vishnu. "Hare" can be interpreted as either the vocative of Hari, another name of Vishnu meaning "he who removes illusion", or as the vocative of Harā, a name of Rādhā, Krishna's eternal consort or Shakti.

According to A. C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada, Harā refers to "the energy of God" while Krishna and Rama refer to God himself, meaning "He who is All-Attractive" and "He who is the Source of All Pleasure". Rama can also refer to Radha-Raman, another name of Krishna meaning beloved of Radha, or as a shortened form of Balarama, Krishna's first expansion.

The mantra is repeated, either out loud (kirtan), softly to oneself (japa), or internally within the mind. Srila Prabhupada describes the process of chanting the Maha Mantra as follows:
"Krishna consciousness is not an artificial imposition on the mind; this consciousness is the original energy of the living entity. When we hear the transcendental vibration, this consciousness is revived.

Chafe Beneath The Clouds

Black

Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay
Were laid spread out before me as her body once did.
All five horizons revolved around her soul
As the earth to the sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn

Ooh, and all I taught her was everything
Ooh, I know she gave me all that she wore
And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was everything.
Oh, the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything.

I take a walk outside
I'm surrounded by some kids at play
I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear?
Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head
I'm spinning, oh, I'm spinning
How quick the sun can drop away

And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass
Of what was everything?
All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything.

All the love gone bad turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see, all that I am,
all I'll be.
yeah.

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life,
I know you'll be a sun in somebody else's sky,
but why
Why, why can't it be, why can't it be mine

Third Time Lucky

Something For The Weekend

First time I did it for the hell of it,
Stuck it on the back of my tongue, and swallowed it.
Second time, things are getting easier,
Blow me down, this wind is getting breezier.
Third time lucky, maybe feelin' fuzzy.

Oh my God! We're getting hippy-dippy!
5-6-7 Man I'm in heaven, and I'm growing my beard,until it gets sheared.
You're on my mind, every day and every night, and you'll never go away,
coz I know you're here to stay, for the rest of my mind.

First time I did it for the hell of it,
Stuck it right up and that was the end of it.
Second time, things are getting easier,
hairs on the back of my neck are getting stickier.
Third time unlucky perversly bloody,

Doctor, I'm ill please pass me the brandy.
5-6-7 I heard George Foreman say:Slow horses loose,Fast women frighten.
You're on my mind,every day and every night,and you'll never go away,
cause I know you're here to stay, for the rest of my mind.

I just keep repeating myself.
I just keep repeating myself.
I just keep repeating myself.

Ah Yeah, cause you're on my mind,every day and every night,
and you'll never go away, cause I know you're here to stay, for the rest of my mind,
On my mind, every day and every night, and you'll never go away,
cause I know you're here to stay, for the rest of my mind.

**
**Whistles** There's always something for the weekend ain't it? Well, it's the best time of the week again. Till my next busy weekend comes *smiles*, I shall enjoy this one first. This week's first, next week's next! Never had so many things going on at the same time and I always thought that life's rather boring! Grab your coat, it's time to jump! Choose your destination tonight darling.

Awakened One

Shakyamuni-Siddhārtha Gautama

Siddhārtha Gautama (Sanskrit; Pali: Siddhāttha Gotama) was a spiritual teacher from Ancient India and the founder of Buddhism. He is universally recognized by Buddhists as the Supreme Buddha (Sammāsambuddha) of our age.

Buddhism originates in the teachings of Shakyamuni, the historical founder of Buddhism who was born in what is now Nepal some 2,500 years ago. The time of his birth and death are uncertain, a majority of 20th-century historians date his lifetime from circa 563 BCE to 483 BCE, but some more recent scholars have suggested dates around 410 or 400 BCE for his death.
This alternative chronology, however, has not yet been accepted by other historians. Gautama, also known as Sakyamuni or Shakyamuni (“sage of the Shakyas”, in Pali "śakamuṇi"), is the key figure in Buddhism, and accounts of his life, discourses, and monastic rules were summarized after his death and memorized by the sangha. Passed down by oral tradition, the Tripitaka, the collection of discourses attributed to Gautama, was committed to writing about 400 years later.

Gateway of a Buddhist stupa built by King Ashoka (268-232 B.C.) of IndiaShakyamuni was born a prince but renounced his royal upbringing to embark on a spiritual quest to understand how human suffering could be ended. Eventually, while in deep medidation, he experienced a profound awakening, or enlightenment -- a deep, encompassing understanding of life and human nature.

According to tradition, Shakyamuni then traveled throughout the Indian subcontinent for nearly 40 years sharing his enlightened wisdom, promoting peace and teaching people how to unleash the great potential of their lives. He became known as the Buddha, or "Awakened One".

His teachings were recorded as sutras and spread throughout Asia, giving rise to a number of distinct schools of Buddhism, generally characterized by an emphasis on peace and compassion.

Ideal

The Magical Numbers

I have been in the range of 76.4kg for sometime around 10 years now.

Then it became 73.2kg after a month.

It dropped to 71.6kg by the end of August.

Now it's at 69.6kg in mid-September.

My ideal should be 65kg and I hope it will come true soon.

This means 4.5kg more to go.

**
I plan to get the plan executed by the end of October. Will I achieve it or will I fail? I shall have myself to weigh and determine. In the meantime, I'm losing it nicely.

Art Of Enlightenment

Thangka

A "Thangka" is a painted or embroidered Buddhist banner which was hung in a monastery or a family altar and carried by lamas in ceremonial processions. In Tibetan the word 'than' means flat and the suffix 'ka' stands for painting. The Thangka is thus a kind of painting done on flat surface but which can be rolled up when not required for display, sometimes called a scroll-painting.

The most common shape of a Thangka is the upright rectangular form. Originally, thangka painting became popular among travelling monks because the scroll paintings were easily rolled and transported from monastery to monastery. These thangka served as important teaching tools depicting the life of the Buddha, various influential lamas and other deities and Bodhisattva.

One popular subject is The Wheel of Life, which is a visual representation of the Abhidharma teachings (Art of Enlightenment). While regarded by some as colourful wall hangings, to Buddhists, these Tibetan religious paintings offer a beauty, believed to be a manifestation of the divine, and are thus visually stimulating.

Thangka, when created properly, perform several different functions. Images of deities can be used as teaching tools when depicting the life (or lives) of the Buddha, describing historical events concerning important Lamas, or retelling myths associated with other deities. Devotional images act as the centrepiece during a ritual or ceremony and are often used as mediums through which one can offer prayers or make requests.

Overall, and perhaps most importantly, religious art is used as a meditation tool to help bring one further down the path to enlightenment. The Buddhist Vajrayana practitioner uses the image as a guide, by visualising “themselves as being that deity, thereby internalising the Buddha qualities.”

Too Weak To Face The Truth

How Can I Fall

Give me time to care
The moments here for us to share
Still my heart is not always there
What more can I say to you

Could I lie to you?
I'm just too weak to face the truth
Now I know I should make a move
What more can I say

How can I fall, how can I fall
When you just won't give me reasons
When you just won't give me reasons at all

When all faith is gone
I fight myself to carry on
Yet I know of the harm I do
What more can I say to you

Now I hold this line
I know the choice to leave is mine
I can't help what I feel inside
What more can I say

How can I fall, how can I fall
When you just won't give me reasons
When you just won't give me reasons at all

I'll follow through, I'll see I do
When the time is more right for you
I'll make that move, and when I do
Will I doubt again, the way I do

How can I fall, how can I fall
When you just won't give me reasons
When you just won't give me reasons at all

**
Speaking is the 'bubble of denial.' I need to exercise my prerogative, to humor the ridiculous, go out on a limb or remain the pious by holding out and risk persecution. So be it.

I can't validate the guilty pleasure, hang-up or self-indulgence, but I can rationalise being a willing slave to its pressure or condescend to acquiesce to avoid real suffering, even garner sympathy for my righteous sacrifice or implied martyrdom.

Thus, I can step it up or hang out, submit to the charade, or sacrifice to what end?

But it's the inevitably lame justification that prompts posturing, or playing victim, dumb or innocent.

Today I can take it, fake it, quit kidding myself, or put an end to tempting resistance and just grin and bear it.

Life Will Be Lonely

Hands To Heaven

As I watch you move, across the moonlit room
There's so much tenderness in your loving
Tomorrow I must leave, the dawn knows no reprieve
God give me strength when I am leaving.

So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday

Tonight, I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight, you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

As we move to embrace, tears run down your face
I whisper words of love, so softly
I can't believe this pain, it's driving me insane
Without your touch, life will be lonely

So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday

Tonight, I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight, you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

Morning has come, another day
I must pack my bags and say goodbye

**
The situation appears to be a riddle, wrapped in a mystery, concealed in an enigma.

A Tall Just For Me

Sip It Down

The aroma floats
Walk over to the counter
Oh, I'm certain now
It's the same cup
A tall just for me

It's my favourite cup
A plastic one to feel
Is it a green or a brown?
I shall call my own
Let me decide now

I will have the green
The taste I can't resist
No, it'll be the same again
Like now like always

Sip it down my dear

Have you come for it?
Have you felt the need?

Should you have a cup?
Should you like to taste?

Would you call it yours?
Would you like another sip?

Do you like it now?
Do you feel the same?

Can you feel it now?
Can you tell me how?

It's true darling.
The nightmares are over.
I'm here beside you.
I'm yours to keep.

Let's sip together.
Let's sleep together.

For What Nobody Knew

Anybody Listening

You and I
long to live like the wind upon the water.
If we close our eyes, we'll maybe realise
there's more to life than what we have known.
And I can't believe I've spent so long
living lies I know were wrong inside,
I've just begun to see the light.

Long ago there was a dream,
had to make a choice or two.
Leaving all I loved behind,
for what nobody knew.
Stepped out on the stage, a life
under lights and judging eyes.
Now the applause has died and I
can dream again.

Is there anybody listening?
Is there anyone that sees what's going on?
Read between the lines,
criticize the words they're selling.
Think for yourself and feel the walls
become sand beneath your feet

Feel the breeze?
Time's so near you can almost taste the freedom.
There's a warm wind from the south.
Hoist the sail and we'll be gone,
by morning this will all seem like a dream.
And if you don't return to sing the song,
maybe just as well.
I've seen the news and there's
not much I can do alone

Is there anybody listening?
Is there anyone who smiles without a mask?
What's behind the words
images they know will please us?
I'll take what's real.
Bring up the lights.

Is there anybody listening?
Is there anyone that sees what's going on?
Read between the lines,
criticize the words they're selling.
Think for yourself and feel the walls.
become sand beneath your feet.

Your Dream Is Over

Silent Lucidity

Hush now, don't you cry
Wipe away the teardrop from your eye
You're lying safe in bed
It was all a bad dream
Spinning in your head
Your mind tricked you to feel the pain
Of someone close to you leaving the game of life
So here it is, another chance
Wide awake you face the day
Your dream is over
or has it just begun?

There's a place I like to hide
A doorway that I run through in the night
Relax child, you were there
But only didn't realise it and you were scared
It's a place where you will learn
To face your fears, retrace the years
And ride the whims of your mind
Commanding in another world
Suddenly you hear and see
This magic new dimension

I will be watching over you
I am gonna help you see it through
I will protect you in the night
I am smiling next to you,
in silent lucidity

If you open your mind for me
You won't rely on open eyes to see
The walls you built within
Come tumbling down, and a new world will begin
Living twice at once you learn
You're safe from the pain in the dream domain
A soul set free to fly
A round trip journey in your head
Master of illusion, can you realise
Your dream's alive, you can be the guide but

I will be watching over you
I am gonna help to see it through
I will protect you in the night
I am smiling next to you.
in silent lucidity.

**
I'm here. I'm not running. I'm not hiding. You're safe with me. Close your eyes and dream another dream.

Love Is Your Breath

Love Is A Shield

Love is a shield,
to hide behind,
love is a field,
to grow inside,
and when I sometimes close my eyes,
my mind starts spinning round.

Love is a baby,
in a mother's arms,
love is your breath,
which makes me warm,
and when I sometimes close my eyes,
my mind starts spinning round.

There is a feeling,
that flows through me,
when you are near,
you make it real,
and we could live for this ideal.

And all the pictures we run through,
seem to be perfect,
seem to be true.

But nothing is quite forever,
especially staying together.

I don't care nowwhat comes along,
what counts is us,
no matter what will be,
just this naivety.

The changing words we're taking in,
seem to be perfect,
seem to win.

But nothing is quite forever,
especially staying together.

Read The Readings

The Great Commandment

Some people suppress you
they partch you
and reap a disaster
Reeducation for the infants
who demanded for an innocent instance

The great commandment
shows the contempt
between the world and their embarrassing pavement
Believe the scholars
read the readings
realize the man who says anything
The great commandment

The needies believe you
they treat you
like survivors of a disaster
Reeducation for the infants
who demanded for an innocent instance
The great commandment

Closet

Hop With Me

It's been some time
I could not put it on
I hold on tight to it
I just stare at it

Chuck it in the closet
Crumple it in the cupboard

It's been so long now
I could now put it on
I could rub it on my skin
I am feeling thin

**
Everytime I pulled the door of the cupboard, my glistening eyes never failed to stare at the mickey mouse tee which hung on its rails. It was purchased a very long time ago. Surprisingly, never with the intention of wearing it. The simple reason is obvious. The size of the tee 'will' never be able to fit me in. I just couldn't crawl into it. How much more frustrating could it get?

Anyway, I bought it simply because it looks really good, with blue and red being the main dominating colours. I could never imagine myself wearing it ever. My wife thought so too!

At long last, I chanced upon it again yesterday. I was thinking that maybe I should try to put it on. Well, I pulled it over and it slipped in so nicely. Oh! My! My! It fits so perfectly! It makes me feel so cool and nice. Impressive, the colours so bright! It lit up my eyes almost immediately as a moment of shock grasped me. This is truly unbelievable! With the two months of hunger that I went though, what evolved is a new, fresh, healthy, fit and charismatic sapien! Boo!

The magic of the wizardry Mickey Mouse has become a reality! Let's see what's next. Mickey, it's time to wave your magic wand again!

Got Nothing Left To Use

Walkaway

If you've heard all they got to say
You looked but turned away
Walkaway, walkaway

If you've said all you got to say
And now the words just slip away
Just walkaway, walkaway, walkaway

That's what they say, what they say, what they say
You gotta walkaway

If you've played all the games they play
You played them yesterday
Walkaway, walkaway

If you've been, where they want to go
Seen all they got to show
Just walkaway, walkaway, walkaway

That's what they say, what they say, what they say
You gotta walkaway

And now you must believe me
You never lose your dreams
And now you must believe me
We never lose our dreams

If you've proved all there is to prove
Got nothing left to use
Walkaway, walkaway

If you've done, all there is to do
There ain't nothing left for you
Just walkaway, walkaway, walkaway

That's what they say, what they say, what they say
Walkaway, walkaway,walkaway

That's what they say, what they say, what they say
You gotta walkaway
Today

Honey Dripping Beehive

Just Like Honey

Listen to the girl
As she takes on half the world
Moving up and so alive

In her honey dripping beehive
Beehive
It's good, so good, it's so good
So good

Walking back to you
Is the hardest thing that
I can do
That I can do for you
For you

I'll be your plastic toy
I'll be your plastic toy
For you

Eating up the scum
Is the hardest thing for
Me to do

Just like honey

**
Then, it was Caramel. Now, it's honey. So where's my cherry chocolate candy? Is it hiding somewhere out there? We shall do it one more time. Maybe this weekend? Come on hurry up will you! It's getting late!

Sweet Appetite

Caramel

It won't do
to dream of caramel,
to think of cinnamon
and long for you.

It won't do
to stir a deep desire,
to fan a hidden fire
that can never burn true.

I know your name,
I know your skin,
I know the way
these things begin;

But I don't know
how I would live with myself,
what I'd forgive of myself
if you don't go.

So goodbye,
sweet appetite,
no single bite
could satisfy.

I know your name,
I know your skin,
I know the way
these things begin;

But I don't know
what I would give of myself,
how I would live with myself
if you don't go.

It won't do
to dream of caramel,
to think of cinnamon
and long for you.

**
Good things come in a glass bottle! Remember? The caramel is so sweet just like you!

Every Whispered Word

Viva Forever

Do you still remember how we used to be,
Feeling together, believe in whatever my love has said to me,
Both of us were dreamers, young love in the sun,
Felt like my saviour, my spirit I gave you, we'd only just begun.

Hasta manana, always be mine.

Viva forever, Ill be waiting,
Everlasting like the sun,
Live forever, for the moment,
Ever searching for the one.

Yes I still remember every whispered word,
The touch of your skin giving life from within like a love song that I'd heard
Slipping through our fingers, like the sands of time,
Promises made, every memory saved as reflections in my mind.

Hasta manana, always be mine.

Viva forever, Ill be waiting,
Everlasting like the sun,
Live forever, for the moment,
Ever searching for the one.

But we're all alone now, was it just a dream,
Feelings untold, they will never be sold, and the secrets safe with me

Hasta manana, always be mine.

Viva forever, Ill be waiting,
Everlasting like the sun,
Live forever, for the moment,
Ever searching for the one.

**
Especially for you. It's the Spice Girls! Yes, it is. Not Britney Spears at least. Haha.

No Use Denying

Good Enough

I've made mistakes
That I'm sure I'll make again
Guess I liked them enough
The first time around

No way to fight them
No use denying
The way it grows
Uh-huh

Whatever happens
Never thought for a second
That I'd let go
Uh-huh

Everybody says
You must have lost your head
Well, one more time is good enough for me
Yeah, one more time is good enough for me

It's a hard road to your heart
And there was a time when I never thought I'd get that far
Uh-huh

Everybody says
You must have lost your head
Well, one more time is good enough for me
Yeah, one more time is good enough for me

All The Dead People In The World

Song To The Cynic

No, you won't leave your mark on me
I'm protected by an honesty
And all the dead people in the world
to scare, to give

You won't leave your mark on me
I feel stupid cause I'm lost at sea
And all the dead people in the world
to scare, to live

And if what you said was true
and it all returns to you
Don't need your false impressions
of the world in you

And if what you said was true
when it all belongs to you
I'll need your sacred blessing
just to talk to you

And you won't leave your mark on me
I'm protected by an honesty
And all the dead people in the world
too late, to live

And you won't leave your mark on me
You won't leave your mark on me
Ohhh...

It's A Shame

Epic

Can you feel it ,see it, hear it today?
If you can't, then it doesn't matter anyway
You will never understand it cuz it happens too fast
And it feels so good, it's like walking on glass

It's so cool, it's so hip, it's alright
It's so groovy, it's outta sight
You can touch it, smell it, taste it so sweet
But it makes no difference cuz it knocks you off your feet

You want it all but you can't have it
It's cryin', bleedin', lying on the floor
So you lay down on it and you do it some more
You've got to share it, so you dare it

Then you bare it and you tear it
You want it all but you can't have it
It's in your face but you can't grab it
It's alive, afraid, a lie, a sin

It's magic, it's tragic, it's a loss, it's a win
It's dark, it's moist, it's a bitter pain
It's sad it happened and it's a shame
You want it all but you can't have it

It's in your face but you can't grab it
What is it?
It's it
What is it?

I Would Keep Myself

Hurt

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

I'm Cynical

Tsunami

For you my dear sister
Holding onto me forever
Disco dancing with the rapists
Your only crime is silence

Can't work at this anymore
Can't move I want to stay at home
Tied up to all these crutches
Never far from your hands

Tsunami tsunami came washing over me
Tsunami tsunami came washing over me
Cant speak, cant think, wont talk, wont walk
Doctors tell me that Im cynical

I tell them that it must be chemical
So what am I doing girl
Cry into my drink I disappear
Eyes for teeth waving over me

Bring down the shadows of my mind
Sleep and breathe under our sheets
Inhale the anxiety in-between, in-between, in-between, in-between
Tsunami tsunami came washing over me
Tsunami tsunami came washing over me
Tsunami tsunami came washing over me
Tsunami tsunami came washing over me

Through september under the weather
In-between, in-between, in-between, in-between

Tsunami tsunami came washing over me
Tsunami tsunami came washing over me
Tsunami tsunami came washing over me
Tsunami tsunami came washing over me
Take the gis I will have the spies

**
Look at the lyrics guys. It's the Manics this time. It has always been September, the month associated with many happenings and tragedies. Bomb and terrosist attacks and many more unforgettable disasters, especially the mark left on September 11th, the one that always creeps into our minds.

For the Muslims, tonight is the last night before the beginning of considered the most venerated, blessed and spiritually-beneficial month of Ramadan in the Islamic year. Prayers, fasting, charity, and self-accountability are especially stressed at this time; religious observances associated with Ramadan are kept throughout the month. What a time for an earthquake and Tsunami alert to take place.

In the Name of Allah, The Compassionate, The Beneficient, The One who has plenty of mercy for the believers and the blasphemers in this world and especially for the believers in the hereafter.

I Am Enlightened

I Stay Away

Yeah, I want to travel south
This year
Won't prevent safe passage here
Why you act crazy
Not an act maybe
So close a lady
Shifty eyes shade
Yeah, hey
Yeah, tears that soak
A callous heart
Why you act frightened
I am enlightened
Your weakness builds me
So someday you'll see
I stay away

Meals From The Fields

Food For Everyday

Grab the two slices
Just two not more
Wholemeal it is
Its your whole meal

Harvest the leaves
Greens of the field
Tiny roots of alfalfa
Tasteless yet rich

Black bursting bubbles
Could be orange if you like
Delicious caviar in a can
Munch it if you like

Spread it all over
Golden yellow is its colour
Melts like a flower
Adds taste to the bite

**
Here lies the secret. This is what I have been surviving on for the past two month to shed the unnecessary excess skin that i have acumulated all these while. Try it! It does work! No more no less, it's enough for the day to keep you going. Hunger won't strike. Stop thinking of food!

Sweet To Surrender

Blue savannah

Blue Savannah

Blue savannah song
Oh, blue savannah song

Somewhere 'cross the desert
Some time in the early hours
In a restless world
On the open highway

My home is where the heart is
Sweet to surrender to you only
I send my love to you

Blue savannah song
Oh, blue savannah song

Racing 'cross the desert
At a hundred miles an hour
To the orange side
Through the clouds and thunder

My home is where the heart is
Sweet to surrender to you only
I send my love to you

Well I'm on my way back and your love will bring me home
I'm travelling fast and your love will bring me home
Will I discover that your love will bring me home?
Will I discover that your love will bring me home?

Somewhere 'cross the desert
Some time in the early hours
To the orange side
Through the clouds and thunder

My home is where the heart is
Sweet to surrender to you only
I send my love to you

Home is where the heart is
Sweet to surrender to you only
I send my love to you

Ooh, savannah song
To you only
I send my love to you
Ooh, savannah song
To you only
To you only

Let Me Take A Ride

Polly

Polly wants a cracker
I think I should get off her first
I think she wants some water
To put out the blow torch

It isn't me
We have some seed
Let me clip
Your dirty wings
Let me take a ride
Don't cut yourself
I want some help
To please myself

I've got some rope
You have been told
I promise you
I have been true
Let me take a ride
Don't cut yourself
I want some help
To please myself

Polly wants a cracker
Maybe she would like some food
She asks me to untie her
A chase would be nice for a few

It isn't me
We have some seed
Let me clip
Your dirty wings
Let me take a ride
Don't cut yourself
I want some help
To please myself

I've got some rope
You have been told
I promise you
I have been true
Let me take a ride
Don't cut yourself
I want some help
To please myself
Polly said

Polly says her back hurts
And she's just as bored as me
She caught me off my guard
It amazes me, the will of instinct

It isn't me
We have some seed
Let me clip
Your dirty wings
Let me take a ride
Don't cut yourself
I want some help
To please myself

I've got some rope
You have been told
I promise you
I have been true
Let me take a ride
Don't cut yourself
I want some help
To please myself

Just Watch The Rain

Catch The Breeze

Feels like all the days are gone
Just catch the breeze
You know you've had your fun
Rain washes waves down

And I, I want the world to cry
And I, I watch the winds you fly
You can't believe in everything
You can't believe it all

Hey are you feeling something new
Just watch the rain
It helps in all you do
The breeze it blow
It blows everything

And I, I want the world to cry
And I, I want the sun to shine
You can't believe in everything
You can't believe it all

**
The breeze did blow very hard. The night was so much fun! Till we meet again! Yipee.

See Your Shoes And Your Spirits Rise

Friday I'm In Love

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about you
It's Friday I'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
It's Friday I'm in love

Saturday wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday never hesitate

I don't care if Mondays black
Tuesday Wednesday heart attack
Thursday never looking back
It's Friday I'm in love

Monday you can hold your head
Tuesday Wednesday stay in bed
Or Thursday watch the walls instead
It's Friday I'm in love

Saturday wait
And Sunday always comes too late
But Friday never hesitate

Dressed up to the eyes
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out your frown

And just smiling at the sound
And as sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round
Always take a big bite

It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you eat in the middle of the night
You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff

It's Friday I'm in love

**
The clock strikes. It's a new day. I'm so in love with Fridays, its the best day of the week! Coincidentally, it's Friday morning. Another morning. Another beautiful morning. It's time to brush your teeth, tie your shoelaces and put your make up on darling.

St Michael's brother is calling. I can hear him. But the station doesn't sound quite right.

Are you talking about Zeus' sister? Hmm, but there's no elephant there tonight.

Maybe we shall go to the bar. But none of it seems to be serving its customers right.

I'm don't need to rock that hard. My blog already rocks.

Let's just walk past the clinic. I'm not going in! I'm not sick!

Ohhh, wait! I hear the sweet melodious chime of the wind. That'll probably answer the call!

Should I stay or should I go now? Perhaps another time?

There In The Still

Waiting For The Night

Im waiting for the night to fall
I know that it will save us all
When everythings dark
Keeps us from the stark reality

Im waiting for the night to fall
When everything is bearable
And there in the still
All that you feel
Is tranquility

There is a star in the sky
Guiding my way with its light
And in the glow of the moon
Know my deliverance will come soon

Im waiting for the night to fall
I know that it will save us all
When everythings dark
Keeps us from the stark reality

Im waiting for the night to fall
When everything is bearable
And there in the still
All that you feelIs tranquility

There is a sound in the calm
Someone is coming to harm
I press my hands to my ears
Its easier here just to forget fear

And when I squinted
The world seemed rose-tinted
And angels appeared to descend
To my surprise
With half-closed eyes
Things looked even better
Than when they were open

Been waiting for the night to fall
I knew that it would save us all
Now everythings dark
Keeps us from the stark reality

Been waiting for the night to fall
Now everything is bearable
And here in the still
All that you feel
Is tranquility.

**
The night is near. It's not far. It's less than a month away. Its a romantic night of celebration where everything is so tranquil. Shhhhh.